It's my birthday today. Thank you very much, if you sent out a silent wish into the Universe for me. This day in 2018, one month into my journey with WordPress, I woke up contemplating Suicide. Yes, you heard it right. That morning I found no reason to live. Absolutely nothing to tether me back … Continue reading Happy Birthday To Me!
Learning to accept ourselves with grace is like a journey by train to a hitherto unknown location on the map for a getaway. It begins with delirious anticipation. Of the dawn of the day of departure. Of the destination. Of what the sights and sounds might be like. Of who we would be there. If … Continue reading Next Stop: Acceptance
“The world you live in is in its last vestiges. Hold on to dear old life!” That’s the media; print and television alike, peddling its ragbag brimming with doomsday predictions to people like me who are at home, quarantined since a month, fighting hard to stay above the quicksand of endless information that’s seemingly updated … Continue reading Doomsday Alert No: 3405! SORRY! NOT THE END!
Pain is an inexplicable thing. Not physical pain. Pain, that has sprawled itself like the mythological 3-headed dog deep in the recesses of our mind palaces. It lolls around idly, bobbing its treble heads in unison, in that vast expanse on most days. Snaking its way to spaces it’s forbidden to enter. Peeping into unnumbered … Continue reading Dichotomy Of My Identity: I Am A Survivor
Am I just a series of haphazard episodes capturing my chronological, close encounters with horror to you? Am I the omnibus of all my talents of ingenuity you were never curious to know? Am I the assortments of all those skills you perceive I should possess that I know don’t matter much in the grand … Continue reading Dichotomy Of My Identity: I Am More
The now-accustomed face on the other side of the mirror is conventionally pretty today. Those dark pools of penetrating intensity, lined with kohl could burn a hole through your heart. A closer look at the prominent nose shows a slight dent on the top left where the purple cat-eyes perch gently like a Persian cat … Continue reading Dichotomy Of My Identity: WHO AM I?
Life is fleeting... Yeah, yeah! I know you have heard this so often that your ears bleed blue every time you hear it these days. The bloody phrase (or is that a statement? Who cares anyway!) has been my nemesis since I was born. If you have been hunted down by delirious demons all your … Continue reading Caution: Speed-breaker ahead!
Amidst the blinding visual imagery of a non existing simulated world of gaming, that entices your mind with its sinister grip of numbness; What do you seek? Amongst the compulsive sexual imagery of a faux world of carnal pleasure, that paralyses your body with its sterile grip of nothingness; What do you seek? Between the … Continue reading Eternal Damnation
I perch myself on the oddly shaped armchair lent by my landlord and look out the windows. Its 4:56pm. My favorite Bulbul chirps ‘Wipro,Wipro’ somewhere in the vast expanse of the virginal blue carpet that the Gods have laid out for me. The clouds that wore the garb of Mt. Machapuchare, a while ago, seem … Continue reading The Vault to my Wonderland
I try not to stare. It’s been a while and you don’t look the same. Yet there’s that charming familiarity that’s warming the air. Were you always this pale? Did I never notice earlier? The triple windows are wide open. A couple of Red Whiskered Bulbuls try to catch my attention; I throw … Continue reading I will keep the lights on…